I could choose to be negative and look at this entire situation as life picking on me or I could and do choose to see this as an opportunity to do other things in meantime such as; work even harder on music, script writing, workout, find a job and well you get the picture.  It's just not worth my time to worry about things I cannot change.  For me it's all about being proactive and doing what I can to help me.  I don't want to fall into a state of depression, become ill, or just be down about something I personally have nothing to do with and no matter what can't change.  I have to trust the universe that other people will do their jobs and I have to do my part.  I have made all the necessary calls, sent out every email, snail mail, and done any and everything possible.  Now I'm moving on to other things that I need to do in my life.  So often when problems strike we get bogged down and become so absorbed that other things fall by the away side. Then we have even more problems to contend with because we let so much go.  I don't know about you but I  hate being overwhelmed.

If you've been following my career and my blogs then you know I am working on a documentary about gender identity and role playing.  It's entitle, "Code Switching 101"  It's a 3 part series the first being, "I Am Who I Am." That's where each person interviewed self identifies and tells briefly a bit about their life and how they came to their decision. Phase 2 is a panel discussion involving both butch and fems.  Phase 3 well that's still a secrete so stay tuned.  

Well thanks for dropping by.  Feel free to leave comments and let me know how you are and what's going on in your life.  Keep me in your thoughts and prayers and I will do the same for you.  Till next our text cross. 

Well I've been busy with summer school but also 3 new videos in the works for both older and new songs.  It's taking so long because I have to round up women.  Yeah, that is fun but also frustrating.  You know I'm picky.  I want to find all the right people, with just the right look that represents my mindset.  I finally got my first video released and I hope everyone is watching and loving it.  I can't stay here long today, I have test and homework coming out of every hole in my body.  I have so many good songs just waiting to be heard.  I'm having a ball and so will you.  There's a new line dance with video and some dance cuts to get crunk to.

Stay tuned for more coming very soon.  I hope you like it and continue to come by.  Also, keep buying this is the only way I can keep churning out what you like.  This is my employment.  I keep it affordable to help us both.

Far too many people feel desperate and just jump into anything even when they know it's the wrong thing to do. So family enjoy your time, feel good about being alone. Find comfort in other interest and channel that sexual energy.  Dance, write, go to the gym, create and reinvent your life.  Corporations change mid-stream when things don't work for them all the time.  Why can't people do the same thing?  Imagine yourself to be a product that isn't selling or at least not selling very well.  What do they do in the business world?  They repackage the product, (change your hair, style, get a style etc.) they change the product name (Kentucky Fried Chicken - KFC), they add more to the menu, (get a hobby and become more interesting), they do market research to see what works and what doesn't (don't ask people who lie to you), and finally they fake it until they make it.  Yeah that's the big one.  They lie until we consumers believe that mess and buy into it. lol So believe you are fabulous, behave in a fabulous manner, associate with people who think you are fabulous, and you will become fabulous.  Don't be fake, pretentious, or and idiot.  Don't be caught up in materialism, greed, or shallow. That's not fabulous.  Be spiritual, intelligent, fun loving, kind hearted, considerate, and free thinking.  That is fabulous. 

Ok, over the last few months I have survived family problems, a health scare, poverty, academic derailment, a career slow down, and now this my landlord let his house go into foreclosure!  What the heck!  That was after the ceiling caved in because the water heater feel through it. lol Come on it's funny and you know it!  Who could be stressed?  It's too much, too close together, to take life seriously.  So send me positive energy, pray for me, and keep buy the music, I most definitely appreciate the support.  Though it seems bad and yes it is, I am fine.  My spirits aren't down.  I know that things will work out as always in my favor.  My crying and whining won't make a difference.  It only makes me stronger and a heck of a lot more determined.  I will survive and I will be successful and happy.  Thanks to all of you and your prayers and well wishes.

I have done it!  Today I am uploading my first 2 songs of the album.  I hope you like them.  I really enjoyed making them.  I tried to leave it all on the studio floor.  So please listen, buy, and refer your friends.  I need the funds to complete the entire album. lol  Well, I'm off to do my thing love you all.

Ochi

Wow I'm impressed with me, I'm back and it's the next month rather than several months later.  That's not bad eh?  Well as I type my head is nodding like a basketball and oh man can I dribble! lol I'm tired but I am determined to keep up with my emails, vblogs, and updates.  This is a relationship and for those of you who know me or have spoken to me, you know I value all relationships.  A good relationship is a two way street where everyone puts in according to their ability.  That being said I have to write to you no matter what. So here's the no matter what part. lol

You know they say if some people didn't have bad luck they'd have no luck at all.  lol Well I'm glad I don't believe in luck or this would certainly apply to me.  As if I need one more catastrophy in my life my kitchen and living room ceiling caved in. Yes! Hit the daggum floor! My water heater is in the attic and it was leaking - old rusty, past it's prime.  I informed the landlord long before it came to this but he ignored it and I refused to go into the attic.  It is cramped, might contain large critters, and filled with nails from the shingles that would end up stabbing me in the back.  So I deferred to my gender on this one and allowed him to play his role of "landlord and man". lol Great timing huh?  You bet!  Well He's slowly but surely getting it done.  I was out of water 24 hrs, no hot water 48 hrs, and no ceiling 5 days.  I confined my aid to clean up and I'm not shamed to tell it.  Sometimes it's important to know when "to do" and when "not to do".  This was a not moment. lol  

I'm in the studio and loving every minute accept I'm allergic to cats and the engineer owns several.  :o(   You will love what I've been working on.  Cindy of Smiley Face Recording has done a fantastic job, and so has G1 from New Ground Collabo.  I love working with other women.  I look forward to working one day with the likes of Tracy Chapman, Sweet Honey, Toshi Reagon, Doria Roberts, and many more.  They are all fantastic women and I really respect their work.  

Well that's it for me family.  I'm beyond sleepy.  I know I should proof this but seriously, I'm too tired.  So please forgive any errors and I will fix them later.  I'll post the videos as soon as I finish my class projects.  I'm home schooling my youngest (16 - 11th grade) and that has added to my already stretched load.

Keep me in your prayers, thoughts, and dreams and I shall do the same.  I know it's because of all of you that I stay encouraged and am able to do what I do.  Thanks so much.

the new year is here

whether lesbian, gay, 

questioning or queer

2010 is definitely

our year!

come out, stay out

 hang out

don't bug out

new music is coming

new songs for my friends

i've been writing and 

fighting, i refuse to give in

the missions beyond me

plus ya'll kick my butt

you'll love all the tunes

every line, every cut

you'll dance, you'll laugh

you'll party without end

so a little more patience

i ask now from you

you know how life is

it'll do what it do

so on dancers,

fly prancers, 

my name ain't saint nick

i'm no easter bunny,

nope no leprechaun tricks

i'm ochi

just me

so thanks for your patience

your waits not in vain

you'll be glad you hung in

now go tell all your friends

ochi is coming 

in 2010

Well my first reflection is no lights again.  Darn it!  This student life is getting quite old.  I gotta tell ya I really don't like all this poverty.  Once my career is where I want it to be I really plan on working on the lives of impoverished people.  There has to be a better way.  My first mission is that of energy.  How to help people become less energy dependent.  Well that's it for me now.  Gotta run but good to talk to you all.  Keep the faith and know the music you love really is coming.

Happy Birthday To Me 

Another day less another dolla

being broke makes me wanna holla

doing what I do, still not done

running and gunning

no time for fun

no love life

no wife

a friend would be nice

still music comes first

so back to my verse

ups and downs but i don't frown

got it in my head many are dead

i'm still here, reason for cheer

kids all healthy, so am i

when i need i have

once i stashed

cash upon cash

material things never last

now time i savor

simple pleasures i favor

a minimalist before 

now even more

to fifty i've made it

it's not what thought

it's better it's worse

i don't need a nurse

no diapers for me

i'm grateful to have 

my limbs, mind, and my teeth

stress free lifes blessed me

no aliments, no grey

now you know why

happy birthday to me.

Well I'm a senior and it's about darn time.  I should be completed with the first round of studies by hopefully August of this year.  Then I begin audio engineer classes which will really help to reduce my dependency on others.  Ladies if any of you are serious about making music then I would recommend going to school and learning as much as possible about audio, management, and promotions.  The more you know the less control you have to give up.  

It's been a real roller coaster ride but over all as I've said many times, I am so happy.  Change comes whether we like it or not so learn to be a part of the change.  Going with the flow isn't always the best thing.  Sometimes we get swept to places we don't want to be.  So instead be in front of change not behind it.  Navigate your own waters and plot your destiny.  It will feel much better.  Monitor the climate and don't spend your life reacting but being proactive.  

Well sister's that's it for me today.  Love yourselves, love your families, and love life.  Remember, before you do someone else, be sure to do you.  If you won't who will?  If not now when?

Ochi

I'm a creature of the night. I don't sleep at night because it's not natural to me. I've been this way all my life from childhood. I am one of millions of people that have been wrongfully diagnosed as having insomnia or some other sleep malfunction. While some people do have a disorder there are many of us that are simply night people in the world of day people and unfortunately we night owls don't run the world. If society would be more accepting of us and accommodate us we'd all be much happier and more productive. Let me sleep past 7:30 a.m. Is that too much to ask? I guess so.

I Believe we need to revisit the way society is organized and become more flexible.  There needs to be more 24 hr businesses.  I love working the night shift.  Like we now have 24 hr shopping we need banks, laundromats, doctors offices, and more.  That would open up more employment as well as allowing for the differences of others within this society.  So I vote to expand our services to at least midnight to 2 a.m. in some cases.  That would be so cool.  Ok vote for me in the next election and I'll make that change.  

This has been a public service announcement.  Well it's past my bedtime.  I'm gonna try and get some needed sleep.  lol Deprivation is a killer.